You said you could no longer love

After meeting the very scared you
Only then do I understand the meaning of this phrase
If because of hurt we met Then it's too sad
I hope from the bottom of my heart
I only want you to face me with your true self

You are still smiling unnaturally
Or is it because sorrow suits you better?
If I live only for meeting you Could everything be changed?

I hope from the bottom of my heart
Even if you have been too deeply hurt We could still make it
I love you from my heart
I want to erase every hurt that has beleaguered you
I for You

I hope from the bottom of my heart
If only I could always look at your smile I love you from my heart
I hope that all the light could be bestowed on you
I for You

Hey, the truth is that someone said, hey, that I can't love anyone
I finally realized the significance of meeting you, who is so nervous

If we met one another in order to get hurt, then this is just too sad

I want to tell you something from my heart...
I'm just looking for your true form

You still smile awkwardly, sadness still suits you

If I was born in order to meet you, then I wonder if I can change?...

I want to tell you something from my heart
I'm hurt a little bit too much, but I'll still be on time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe all of the pain away that falls on you, I for you

I want to tell you something from my heart
If only I can always look upon your smile

I love you from my heart
I want to gather up all of the light that falls on you, I for you

Whats the point of being in love..with someone who you know will never feel the same way..
I feel like I put too much energy into this, I tried soo hard to not fall for you..but I just couldnt.
I had more time..more time to see and admire you..to look at every single detail of your being
and I fell..fell deep into a void where Im only stuck there thinking of you.
It feels like Obssesion..but its not.
It feels like Lust..but its not.
what is it?
love.
Love I will never get to feel from you..but Im just wasting too much time

Its been a hell of a long time since I posted anything that wasnt a poem/song, anyway I been playing world of warcraft for awhile now so blogging never comes into my mind when im playing because im always soo into my 5-10 million alts I have XD

Well I updated my site layout Hope people enjoy it.
I noticed I had some random ppl add me to the friends list I dont mind! just want to say HELLOhope you enjoy my random blog ^__^ and comment anytime..introduce yourselves! xD let me give a short bio about myself
Hi, My name is Diana Im 20yrs old..um i come from a Hispanic crazy catholic family Im the only open minded individual in the house, Im the youngest of 2 kids my older brother is 26 and still lives at home -_- I plan to move out one day but with the economy being soo gay I dont have a job and atm I dont go to school. Im planning to go to school soon to get my associates degree on fashion design, I also have other plans on maybe going on to another field of study...I cant really make up my mind on what I want to do in my life..im soo bad haha.
anyway welcome to my blog enjoy you're stay.

p.s I'm a terrible speller and far too lazy to correct my grammar excuse the baddie

Keep me happy, out of line
Keep me sweet and satisfied
Come with me darling
Don't say no
How bout we just take it slow

Sexy baby you sure know
How to make my eyes glow
Come with me sugar
Do not fret
I have to tell you a secret

Staring into the sky
The nature hums music of you

Tell me, what do you feel?
Cause I know I'm feeling something
Emerging magical sores in me
Tell me, what do you feel?
Maybe this is just a moment
But we're penetrating time
Yeah

Your waves are crashing into me
Exciting me and hurting me
I'm feeling sick
Oh what am I to do?
I think your sweet kiss will do

Take me over completely
I'll give you whatever you need

Tell me, what do you feel?
Cause I know I'm feeling something
My senses are super sensitive
Tell me, what do you feel?
What I would do to be your girl
I'm aching without you

What do you feel?
What do you feel?
Tell me, What do you feel?
What do you feel?

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I have realized that you cant just fall in love and think your life is complete....I thought my search was over...that my new life would soon begin...but again its not it..Life...what is life? without love? maybe just loneliness waking up not having someone saying good morning love. I feel like crap today waking up to nothing again...I wish I had something to wake up to...Maybe I will in the future..but not now..I cried all morning and evening, I'm soo angry at myself and him..Why did you do this to me.....this to me now? Why couldn't you realize what we were getting ourselves into. I felt like maybe this was meant to be...I was always in a dream world with you, holding your hand lying down in a field of grass just staring at the sky breathing in a carefree life..or just laying in bed playing with my hair and saying how beautiful I am..only you could make my day better..even just a little you did it for me..I know this sounds lame..but Its not fair...why? why now..what did I do to deserve this? I only fell in love and got hurt all over again...I wish I had someone to cry to..

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt


Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you


Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

I don't feel a thing
and I stopped remembering
The days are just like moments turned to hours

Mother Used to say
if you want, you'll find a way
But mother never danced through fire showers

Walk in the rain, in the rain, in the rain
I walk in the rain, in the rain
Is it right or is it wrong
and is it here that I belong

I don't hear a sound
Silent faces in the ground
The quiet screams, but I refuse to listen

If there is a hell
I'm sure this is how it smells
Wish this were a dream, but no, it isn't

Walk in the rain, in the rain, in the rain
I walk in the rain, in the rain
Am I right or am I wrong
and is it here that I belong

Walk in the rain, in the rain, in the rain
I walk in the rain, in the rain
Why do I feel so alone
For some reason I think of home


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The February's wind is so far.

It's disappearing...
As if the wind kidnaps your heart.

I remember that voice...
The voice that echo under the twinkle night...
The kind eyes reflect it and they draw the love.

Where can I go?
When you are gone
Can you voice be reached to me?
Oh let the wind carry my message please.

The key word you told me, but the door is disappearing. Please notice it.

remember your voice...
I will try to reach my hand to you even if I'm shivering with tears.

I remember you.
I remember the time when we dreamed the same dream.
I'll keep the voice that has borne in me.
Oh let the wind carry my message please.

reaching for you
reaching for you
reaching for you

 

 Pirates :3 they are soooo cool ^_^

Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?
Final Fantasy VII

Hmm...I been away lately, My computer has been on the fritz and im using my old one. It has no graphics card so i cant play wow (T^T) But im just websurfing and listening to vent and stuff, keeping myself entertained ya kno? :) anyway I might watch the whole Escaflowne anime series tommorow + movie I have the dvd set and i have nothing else to do :P so it will be fun to have a planned day, I was supposed to go drive but i woke up late. anything new in my life? well, yes me and albert are just friends, and Justin wants to be with me. Long distance relationships are very hard but im willing to try if he wants to be with me he deserves a chance right? He is a great guy, Makes me laugh makes me feel happy. but he will never be like albert...albert still has my love and always will be my true love..but sometimes..there seems to be a thick wall there blocking me and i dont feel the strenght...the will to try to keep going...have i given up? did i give up? I dont know...my life is still young, I will still love him no matter what...he is very special to me...i dont think i could ever go on in life without knowing where he is or how he is...my bond with him is stronger than friendship...and stronger than love...I dont know...we do live diffrent lives...but I really want to be with him...

I'll see how things go with justin, I do like him very much...but my heart still feels like it needs some rest ;) but I will try to be with him..and as for albert...who knows....in 5yrs or more could we be together? I hope so.

sore wa hakanaku moetsukita hanataba
tsumetai honoo ni shioreta yoru
itoshii hito yo boku wa doko ni iru no
yodomi ni ooware nukedasenai keredo
ano yurameku kagayaki ni anata o kanjite iru

mezameta asa ni yamu koto o wasureta
atataka na ame ga furisosogu
sore wa yasashiku zawameki kesu keredo
kono boku dake naze arai nagasenai no ka
a, yurameku kagayaki ni anata o kanjite ita no ni

kono te no hira kara koboreta
anata ga mienaku naru
koe ga fusagarete yuku nani mo sakebenai
hitogomi ni umore
tell me where I am now?
why can't I get out here
why can't I get out here

a, yurameku kagayaki ni anata o kanjite ita no ni
mou tsunagi tomerarenai
subete wa awaku yurete

kono te no hira kara koboreta
anata ga mienaku naru
nukedasu sube o shirazu ni
sayounara sae mo ienai
koe ga fusagarete yuku
nani mo sakebenai
hitogomi ni umore
tell me where I am now?

 

Back  from the dead, Sorry I been gone lately havent had time to really write anything here :( but I promise some more stuffs here later im starving /puke ughhhhhhh